Once upon a time, thinking was the main killer of my Aliveness.
Every time I had a thought, true or not, I was under its gravitational pull. I had to act on the thought, even if all I could do was worry about it or despair that I couldn’t do anything about it.
When I considered solutions to the problems in my life, I also made up reasons why they wouldn’t ever work for me. I thought up excuses. Not your regular, run of the mill excuses – not the ones that sound like excuses.
I came up with excuses that had logic – ones that sounded perfectly reasonable. They slipped right into the conversation and they were hard to argue with.
My thinking created the Yabuts of Denial.
I started telling myself things like: Yabut, it’s too hard. Or Yabut, I’m not ready.
I was no longer open to new possibilities. I could not see that any other things were possible for me in my life. My Yabut stories were my evidence.
Yabuts are all about control. I knew that if I considered a possibility in my world, something would change. Most people don’t like change and I am the same.
I had moved outside of the Possibility Parameters.
That’s when we stand at the fence and deny what’s on the other side. We say Yabut…. that’s not possible.
Our Yabuts excuse us from being uncomfortable or different. We deny the possibilities.
We get in the habit of making every thought a Yabut thought.
Yabut, that hasn’t been my experience. Yabut, that’s not how I was raised.
Yabut, this isn’t a possibility for me. Yabut this is the evidence that I’ve gathered to prove that. Yabut that’s not allowed. Our minds continuously look for patterns; they look for proof that things fit the stories, instead of asking what is possible now.
When I realized what I was doing, what the YaButs of Denial were doing to my possibilities, I took a long hard look at what I was denying – what I was not allowing to come into my life.
Do you find yourself saying Yabut? Are you interested in finding out more about these sneaky little words?